Hello Fellow Brain

So this morning I was in the shower (TMI) and got inspired to write a blog post (Holy crap, that never happens!)
I was thinking about how worked up people get about the smallest little things that people should find easy to get over. I, as a specimen, am a primary example of this.

To start I'd like to notify you about the common misconception that there is a skeleton inside you. No, there is not a skeleton inside you. There is a skeleton around you. You are a brain-A brain that won't calm down. And as amazing and intelligent as you are brain, you are also a ginormous, gaping black hole of shit.

Recently, I was getting myself in a fuss about regarding socialising (Ahh a painful topic). Now one thing, I hate about myself is that big groups of people make me nervous and having to socialise with people I do not know very well or do not have a lot in common with... that's really not my forte'. SIDENOTE: I'm working on it.
So anwyays, I had to break plans I had with someone as I was seldom comfortable in the presence of their friends as I'd probably talk about how dramatic the change was from Wartortle evolving into Blastoise (Pokémon) or the terrors of tentacle porn or how cool it is that dinosaur bones are dug up and rearranged exactly like they were when they were in the dinosaur (Oh sorry, AROUND the dinosaur). So long story short, I didn't really fit in and got myself into a zigzag of emotion thinking:

"Oh my God, They're not going to understand how much it worries me to do this. They're gonna bitch about me behind my back. They're going to think I'm pathetic. I'm going to let them down.Oh no. What if-"

Now I'm going to stop you there friend. C H I L L.

What I do when I get worried in situations like this, is I walk to a mirror. Look myself in the eye. And talk to myself about the situation and what you can do to make everyone happy. If you can't make everyone happy, you have to decide whether it's more important that OTHERS are happier in this situation or if YOU are happier in this situation. I feel like this is a good way to get to know yourself.

In my case, I decided it was more important that I was happier in this situation. I realised that trying to face my fears by being stuck in a room with a bunch of people that make me uncomfortable isn't going to do shit for me (the brain) . I understand that the constant fear of nobody understanding is sharp and piercing and how much your mind can get away with thoughts that make you feel crap. You just have to abolish them and make a decision; do this even if it means you have to disappoint someone. Don't let it confine or define you. Or let it make you feel bad once you've made your decision. Your mental condition is a LOT  more important than someone's temporary satisfaction, and I cannot stress that point enough.