Cynicism

I decided to take a moment of my own sorrowful self-pity as an opportunity to inform anybody who may be reading this, one of the reasons why I am a terrible human life form.

Essentially, according to the internet Cynicism is an attitude or state of mind characterized by a general distrust of others' motives believing that humans are selfish by nature, ruled by emotion, and heavily influenced by the same primitive instincts that helped humans survive in the wild before agriculture and civilization became established...... I still have to decide whether this definition is either indubitably broad or undoubtedly vague.

My personal translation: I hate people. They're so stupid. Including me. Kill me. lol jk

Now, I've already been through it in my head and decided that I am not going to get many pageviews for any of my blogposts as it's just going to be me complaining about life (and occasional doses of random positivity and confidence I get now and then) like the Unsettled, Emotionally-unstable twatsicle I am. But this. This is a whole new level. DONT GET ME WRONG IM NOT HAPPY ABOUT THIS.

*Insert extremely generic meme about sittin' yo ass down cos Imma tell you a story*
Time for an anecdote. I have a brother. He is 9. He has a... um, reputation for releasing words of stupidity and irrelevance out of his mouth, which I'm assuming are just blatent word vomit as he does not seem to have a filter between his mouth and his brain. I, on the other hand, have a reputation of pulling a certain facial expression after he says said thing. He describes it as "that face you do when I do something stupid and you look really annoyed but like you're about to laugh".... Which happens to be the most accurate description I have ever heard of anything ever.

 I am both completely amused by the ridiculousness of his comment, yet really irritated that he is not funnier and is not as well spoken as I'd hope. Anyone can fall victim of Cynicism I suppose. Everyone has that one thing that makes them tick. Whether it be someone saying something you find stupid all the way to the presence of a certain person that annoys you.
But let me tell you something, it is HELL. It makes you annoyed at every single tiny thing and may even make you want to isolate yourself from humanity and never go outside (never do that, it's not a good idea). To make it worse, you blame the whole entire world for YOUR OWN problems. And drives you to believe you are a horrible person... which is true. You are a horrible person. And it's so hard to escape.

What we really should be doing is accepting that people are different with completely original views, opinions and speech. If we get even slightly peeved by someone saying something that we 100% do not agree with and think is embarrassingly stupid for multiple reasons, we should just be kind and respectful and calm and find comfort in the fact that if we don't want to, we do not have to socialize with them in any way, but still being friendly- no matter how insanely annoying the person is. We should be silently enduring it and be listening to said stupid person intently with wide eyes whilst smiling and speaking through our gritted teeth. Moral of the story: Try to be nice kids, even if it crushes your soul inside.

Is there anyone who actually agrees with me and relates to my pain? Or am I alone with my bitterness? Hahahaha... This was painful to write.